Its not my first time to publish a blog but i was never stick to it so i end up writing few words, a lot of pictures and ignore it for a years.
This post and words dedicated to the most amazing guy i ever know. He was my best friend, my true love and the most precious soul i ever met.
about a year ago i met him on facebook, we had that poke game going on until he added me and we started to chat and fall in love.
I had the best time with him, crazy laughs, a lot of teasing, jealousy moments and those amazing little fights that ends up with "I Love You". before i met him i was drowning in depression and self hating and i was a mess, he changed me his friendship was more than amazing.
you know that guy you always dream of, the one who calls all time, cares so much, remembers every detail about you and try so hard to make you happy.. that was him.
on 19October 2012, I lost him forever, he died due a bomb blast while he was on duty as a brave cop. Everything changed in my life since this, I'm not the same anymore I miss myself and the way I enjoyed life, I feel so broken like there's a whole inside my heart and every time i miss him this whole gets bigger.
I tried to let go, move on but its like going step back, I'm not sure what to do anymore even his best friend is happened to be my best friend as well tried so hard to make me feel better but I don't know whats wrong with me anymore.
They say time heals everything but those flashback and memories is stronger and what hurts the most. I don't know how to get my life back on the track, but I'm trying.